Frederick Buechner writes, “Nobody can be sure, of course, why Judas sold Jesus out, although according to John’s Gospel, he already had a reputation for dipping into the poor box from time to time, so the cash may have been part of it. If, like the other disciples, he was perennially worried about where he stood in the pecking order, he may also have been reacting to some imagined slight. Maybe he thought his job as treasurer to the outfit was beneath him. Another possibility is that he had gotten fed up with waiting for Jesus to take the world by storm and hoped that betraying him might force him to show his hand at last. Or maybe, because nothing human is ever uncomplicated, something of all of these was involved. Anyway, whatever his reasons were, the whole thing went sour for him soon enough.
Slipping out of the Last Supper before the party was over, he led the Romans to the garden that he knew his friends were planning to adjourn to afterward and said to lay low till he gave the signal. It was dark by the time the others showed up, and maybe for fear that he might scare them off if he used any other method, the way he showed the soldiers which was the one to jump was by kissing him. That was all he’d been paid to do, and as soon as he’d done it, there was no earthly reason why he couldn’t have taken off with his laundered cash and found a place to spend it. But when the time came, he wasn’t in the mood.
There are several versions of what he did instead, of which the most psychologically plausible seems to be that he tried to give the money back to the ones who’d given it to him and went out and hanged himself. This time there doesn’t seem to be any ambiguity about the motive.”
“What you are going to do, do quickly.” Jesus