Several years ago I had a dream and I heard this: “To believe with a faithless faith and pray a prayerless prayer and belong to a churchless church, is to believe in a godless god.” Recently I have had similar dreams about these same things. These are rather alarming dreams because I am faced with the reality of perhaps having a godless god. It is back to the issue of believing in God or believing God. One is simple and the other is not.
I find when these thoughts come to me that I need, like the desert fathers, to go to the desert for two reasons: to find out what to let go of, and two, to find out what I should hold on to… in other words, what to ignore and what to embrace.
What I also find in the Desert is that no matter how I frame in my mind a godless god the Father remains a God for the godless. He loves us whether we believe in him or not… but it is just so much better when we do.
“Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me. In my Father’s house are many rooms. If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to myself, that where I am you may be also.” Jesus